these few days, i've been wondering.
what's life's meaning, really.
i dont mean that i have only started thinking about this question over the past few days but i have come to a sudden realisation that i havent come across before.
(i've started thinking about life since sec1.)
well, if i were to suddenly like (touch wood) die, i would feel very unfair.
like, i havent achieved anything at all yet.
and my life's just wasted. like thrown into the bin that leads to nowhere, forever.
i really think that i should make use of my life.
anyway, if i were to choose to lead a wasted life,
like you know those slacky people who hang out at void decks too much, malls way too much or dont go home or do whatever they have to not want to.
like, they are in, so in, for a terrible, labourious, omgoodness graciousness future.
when they finally realise that 'hey, this isnt the kind of life i really wanted.
all i wanted to do, was to just hang out with the opp gender and mix around, you know?' To this, i would gladly (or not) reply, 'no, i dont really know but its great you finally came to your senses.'
like, some people (i dont have any specific ones in mind @ the moment but yeah) dont plan. they dont know what they want. i bet they dont even know how their future's gonna turn out. like, i can totally picture it. not that it is gonna happen 100% but i would certainly give my word that i'll do (not try) my best.
i dont wanna slog like an animal when i am 31,41,51.
i wanna be induging in money, joy, happiness, and the cheerfulness of my family.
i wanna be indulging in the proundness i get from my absolute clever children who scores awesome grades in school.
i wanna be retiring @ the age of 40-50? or even earlier!
I mean, this is the kind of life i really want!
i dont want a (L) life. loser.loser.loser.
not me, definitely. i mean, you cant say that even if i am a (L) now,
i will be one in the future. actually, i dont really regard myself as a Loser.
like, i'm fine if you really need to believe in the false truth that i am one or you might really assume that i am one. but i dont care!
hhahahas, i dont wanna give a damn. and i am not gonna give a damn.
so hell for you and peace on earth.
it doesnt really make sense for you, maybe, cause i speak greek mythology.
but it sounds pretty okay to me.
well, 99% of you wont bother reading this or you might just not understand it.
io dont care.
this is my blog and i am writing to benefit myself.
i just wanna type and type and type and pour my feelings out.
i would be even more glad if people werent reading this :)
oh, currently, i am in love. seriously in love.
with the little black dress series.
they, are absolutely awesome. i tell you, awesome.
you might gladly not agree, but i think so.
and if you disagree, i dont need any interference with my likings.
thankyouverymuch :)
and oh, the Girlfriend Curse is totally AWESOME GREAT! :D
i'll stop here for the moment and continue when my fingers really itch to type. tyvm and ily peopple who are constantly out there for me. thanks. :)
(not you people, but yeah you. and for you people, thanks for making me hate you.)
NATALIE ONG YEEHWEE (: 
